Good Morning to all the lovely people :) especially those who read the shitt i write :P
Its been awhile since I last wrote , am working in a secret agency so they do not allow me to be social at all :/
LOL! well I was busy with my exams and as am done with them now , so I can resume writing :)
Its been awhile since I last wrote , am working in a secret agency so they do not allow me to be social at all :/
LOL! well I was busy with my exams and as am done with them now , so I can resume writing :)
I’m a big girl. I’ve been big all my life. The only time when I wasn’t
big was when I was a thin, frail toddler who would constantly fall sick, as mom
would remember.
You see, as a big girl, I refer to myself a lot of names; plus size, curvy, curvaceous, vivacious etc (why must we label ourselves? So annoying!). But if there is one word I will not call myself, it’s ‘fat’
You see, as a big girl, I refer to myself a lot of names; plus size, curvy, curvaceous, vivacious etc (why must we label ourselves? So annoying!). But if there is one word I will not call myself, it’s ‘fat’
No, I am not in
denial. I am well aware that I am indeed fat. I have no problems with people
calling me that, although I will twitch and feel the need to punch the person
in the face, but I will never call myself that. It’s derogatory and as much as
my fellow plus size sisters make it seem glamorous, make those who hurt them
eat their heart out by embracing this derogatory term with pride, I for
one find it extremely hard to join them in their embrace of the word, although
how much of a supporter I am in the cause.
Believe me, I tried.
I TRIED to like that word. I TRIED to incorporate it in my mind set and use it
as form of witty comebacks for unwanted, unsolicited and stupid comments from
people about my body. I did, I tried..
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| HELL YEAAAAHH |
I hate society’s
representation and stereotype of what a big girl should be like; easily
bullied, low self-esteem, not sexy, not witty bla bla bla hence why I fight to
break that stereotype. However, I find it hard to fight this stereotype if my
fellow sisters keep using ‘fat’ as part of the fight. I understand why they do
that, but it’s just hard, you know. WE understand why we use it, but do they
understand the irony behind it too?
What I am trying to
say is that while I rejoice the fight that women make for all plus size women
out there, proudly calling us fat is a cause that I unfortunately think would
not be a smart move especially if you’re dealing with other people who often do
not feel strongly about what we feel strongly about. I just feel that by calling
ourselves ‘fat’, we are helping them to reinforce the negative stereotype to
which they put on us and while we may feel empowered, they may ridicule us even
more...
I remember the other day I saw a beauty pageant that proudly
fights for plus size women, but shamelessly call their pageant somewhere along
the lines of ‘Fatgent: Pageant For All You Beautiful Fat Girls Out There’.
Okay, maybe not exactly that, but I would imagine instead of applauds, people
would laugh instead. Or ‘fatkini’. I don’t know you guys, I don’t buy it even
though I loveeeee the idea behind it (and the beautiful designs!).
But you know,
that’s just me. At the end of the day, I support body positive and feel that
everyone have different ways of fighting for their own cause. Although it may
not work for me, if it works for them then, hey, who I am to say otherwise?
That is something that many of us should learn to understand I guess, huh? It
feels like post-feminism you know, where you celebrate women and sexuality and
stuff and other feminists (non-feminists as well) think that that’s just wrong
and pushing women backwards.
I AM MAKING A PROMISE NOT TO WEIGH MYSELF ... Because my MENTAL/ EMOTIONAL HEALTH means more to me than a NUMBER ON SCALE :)
REST, next time..
K.BYE :)
